ok since tue...

ok since tuesday.... we had off monday, exams tuesday, off wednesday, exams thursday and friday....wed. orlando came over and then at 8 we picked up jeff and tony and went to Burlhome and snowboarded, i watched and laughed at them....i did try,but its scary... there were 2 many people on the hill so we went to a spot where there werent people... then we went to Wal Mart cuz they needed some stuff and then i came home. i am pretty bored now, but i think ima go...YO IF ANY OF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHING AFTER PROM LET ME KNOW, ...JUST BECAUSE IM NOSEY... OR B4 PROM FOR THAT MATTER... I DUNNO WHATEVER...ima go check my mail now, bye

hmm...

Fankly i dont member a thing ive done over the past week...all i know is sunday we went to delaware to visit our cousins... fun as usual... lol that sounds sarcastic, but im serious...it was fun...um had off monday and had exams today.... ok thats it my week summed up...umm the english midterm was kinda hard, i didnt have enough time to finish it correctly...its spose to snow tomorrow... i mean tonite, maybe ill have off tomorrowplay meetin spose to be friday, well dann says it was changed to friday...ok good bye

leave me alone....

i hate life as we know it and even as we dont know it...god ... i dunno what is wrong with me.. why does no one like me at school?? sure they talk to me but about trivial stuff that really has no importance... no one knows what is going on in my head and on top of that not one cares! so day in and day out i go to a school where i have no friends... my only way out is at 241 the bell rings and i hurry home to either write here or to call like the only person who does care and understands...ok so on to my past few days...FRIDAY: um orlando came over and we watched a movie and friday nite standup and then we fell asleep together..SATERDAY: i got a new school skirt, went to b and e jewlers with my ma and gmom and then to burgerking and then i came home and ripped apart my room to clean it... it is now back together and still doesnt look clean...went to church and we rented The Emperors Club... good movie...SUNDAY: finished cleaning and ... ... ...picked up orlando ate and he went home... ... ... ... and then had a heart to heart with antonio... ... and then got yelled at for STILL being on the phone...TODAY: we must have been the ONLY school who didnt have OFF!!! grr... fyne...goodbye

um ...

um ya i dont remember the last time i wrote so ill just tell about yesterday and my thoughts on today
YESTERDAY: i came home from school and called orlando who informed me that both tony and he were on their way over, this was a bit of a surprise due to the fact that we didnt discuss what we were doing that day... so they get here and we hang and then we go to tonys but inbetween there me and orlando had a fight and tony took my side which pissed orlando off but tony knows i was right.... orlando apologized int he car after i told him how mad i was... but then at tonys house he said something mean and tony chucked something at him like dude that wasnt nice and jeff was like dont get involoved with them... but tony still stuck up for me anywayz ... we filmed a short movie for a comtest either tony of jeff was entering...i dunno... i got to film and be in it! he he he... and at tonys he got a package full of heartagram stuff and i got 2 heartagram wrist bands... cool...ok so then we went to jeffs to watch it and after awhile orlando asked tony what time he had to be home, tony looked at me and said not 9... ( i had to be home at nine with no complaints from me, because i had stuff to do)... and jeffs like lay off dude its a school night... he he he everyone was sticking up for me at pt.... um ya so then i came home and watched tv with my dad (yes... and we didnt fight!)
TODAY: its snowing and im alone....i hate snow...
i may go work on my english project now...goodbye...

ya...

i dont feel like making my type all pretty like... um this mornin we filled out our iflrtz i shall buy 1 b/c they are funny... um mrs maloney was in a hyper eccentric mood thank GOD we are done heart of darkness... at lunch we discussed our status' in life for alittle... um i gotta 100 on my family history project... ... orlando picked me up and i get to borrow t.h.u.g. i went to orlandos for a bit for some fun... and then i came home...and i played sims and t.h.u.g. and then here i am.... ok bye--

hello...QUACK!.. eep did that come outta me?!?

Ok and here was my splendiferous (god why am i in sucha weird mood??) weekend...
ok friday nite me and my mama watched pirates of the carribean (again) and then i slept.
Saturday.... i slept till forever, than there was a mix up of what time we all (tony and lisa and jeff and johnny and orlando and ME!) were chillin (chillin?) so i called lisa who had to work till 830 and said i should start work next week (i am oddly excited about this)... um so i went to early mass (boo!) and then orlando came to pick me up and we went to tonys ... johnny was already there... and we watched a 411 video featuring Bam (yay!) and then lisa (yay!) called and we packed up and went to lisas to watch... o o gross thing at tonys! me and johnny were kinda watching one of tonys 6 cats and his dog, that is the size of a cat, and they were fighting and then the dog started humping the cat!!! EWWWW!!!!! EWWW! me and johnny were like uh... tony.... ok so then after the movie at lisas, me and orlando wrestled and tony thinks its sad that i am an even match for him... i was holding my own... and then orlando and lisa were hitting eachotha with pillows and i looked at tony like.. nope... i cant hurt him...ok that was saturday...
Sunday was another sleep late day and then i went to joannes and boscovs with me madre and i bought a patch and at boscovs i bought clothes for work... so i got home and was forced against my will i assure u to help pack up xmas crap.. then tony called and i convinced orlando to go to his house so we went and i learned a drum rythem... and tony knocked over a glass jar with marbles and sand in it.. the glass broke and he made a really great face! omg... it was so funny...
ok so ya my day today was um... ya ok good bye...o i stayed after school for art club.. ok bye

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hi-
today we got out early... o boy... my daddy picked me up at my bus stop b/c it was so damn cold and i hate the cold... then he dropped me off home, he had to pick up emy... i called orlando and he and tony came here to pick me up and we went to wendys and tony got us fries, we took the food to lisas and ate it and then hung alittle till lisa had to go to work, which orlando drove and lisa handed in my app... then me and orlando and tony went to neshaminy where they messed around with little cars they have and the mall security was like put those away or i will have to confiscate them, JERK! then tony had to go to work and me and Orlando came home, then he had to go pick up Johnny so i hope we all can hang tomorrow... we want to go to lisas and watch movies so i hope that works out.... he he he this is like one big run-on sentence ok well that was my day me and emy 'll prob watch a movie lata... i gotta take a showa...ok
bye-

weee a survey

Instructions:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that you have in common with me.
3. Whatever you don't bold, replace with things about you.
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01. I am going to be17 years old next year.
02. I used to be obsessed with horses.
03. I AM semi-obsessed with Bam margera!!!!.
04. I do not allow myself to fall into awkward romantic situations.
05. I love autumn.
06. I wanta tattoo. (but am afraid of needles)
07. I love to take pictures.
08. I overthink everything.
09. I have notbeen drinking and smoking more than is good for me.
10. I'm a shopaholic.
11.I tend to ruin things for myself
12. Ilove big cities.
13. I am pretty religious.
14. My religion is Catholisism
15. I am a huge procrastinator.!!!!!!!!!
16. I make myself unhappy more than anyone else could.
17. If it were up to me I wouldn't always keep in touch with people.
18. I have a lot to learn .
19. I don;t miss people.
20. I sometimes like to watch the rain and think.
21. I have a lot of coping left to do.
22. I am obsessed with livejournal.
23. I love hugs.
24. I care deeply for some people.
25. I wish I could express myself better.
26. I should exercise more.
27. I started doing this because I don't feel like going to bed yet.
28. I wish i could trust people more.
29. I need to sleep.
30. If i could pick up any sport quickly... skateboarding!.
31. If I were an X-men, I'd be jean grey.
32. I am a believer inequal opportunity.
33. I'm definetely a scorpio.
34. I wish friendships were easier.
35. I (would )love to get drunk and have intellectual conversations.
36. I dont hate wearing socks to bed.
37. I love the water. and beach
38. I've never been surfing.
39. I wish I always had the upper hand.
40. I can be really personable(when i wanna be)
41. I really enjoy thoughtful gifts, even if they cost nothing.
42. I'm not going to study in mcdevittnext year.
43. I love (warm) blankets.
44. I often get (emotionally) beat up by meanfriends.
45. I 'm a very private person.
46. I hate impersonal greeting cards.
47. I dislike feminists who reject male feminist.
48. I hate straight-edgers who are condescending.
49. I still watch cartoons.
50. I love my friends more than anything else.
51. Michael Jackson scares me.
52. I (would) love to share booze.
53. I love tohave moneyto spend on other people
54. I dont bite my nails.
55. I hate being freezing.
56. I can't cook.
57. I think I'm unloved when i shouldnt.
58. If I were a character on TV... i'd be the Evil villan
59. I have not been to france
60. I wish I had more motivation.
61. I hope I always follow my dreams.
62. I have no intentions to go to france.
63. I overreact about things sometimes.
64. I should sleep now.
65. I want to stop letting people get to me.
66. I love to drink.
67. I dont like to be alone all the time.
68. I wish I continued to learn guitar.
69. I don't always tell people when I can't stand them.
70. I used to have a lot of junk.
71. Going home does NOT excite me.
72. I do like the taste of beer.
73. I am sometimes too pretentious.
74. I either sleep too much or too little, but never just enough
75. I dontpass notes.
76. My essays are always bull shitted
77. I want to stop the issues in my head.
78. I love Italian food.
79. I appreciate proper grammatical usage.(when it comes to, "i couldn't care less)
80. I want to visit California.
81.I havent had any plastic surgery
82. I love to go shopping.
83. I eat too much lately.
84. I've lied to my parents about some of my relations with boys.
85. I wish he would express his emotions, postive or negative.
86. Sometimes I think to myself, "What are you doing here?".
87. I love wearing black.
88. I prefer it when feelings offriendships are returned.
89. I dont mind when people are obsessed with how awful they think they look.
90. I think its hilarious when people fall down.
91. I need to sleepway more than I've been reading lately.
92. I sometimes walk with no destination.
93. My hair needs to be trimmed.
94. I love to laugh.
95. I love to look in to the sky.
96. I am extremely true to the description of my zodiac sign.
97. I love jeans.
98. I am glad that people from home go to the school I am in now.
99. I think this survey is long
100. I vote yes on gay marriages

um... ya

today has been not bad... but not good... it asi asi (so so) i called lisa today to see how she is (she was sick) she is ok... over the phone i was filling my app for Nickles (the restuarant) she will hand it in tomorrow... so hopefully soon i will have a job... and money (yes!)... well i hope i can work with lisa b/c ill all be new and alone...
last nite i was talking to my cuz on the phone... she helped me feel better.... so instead of being depressed today i am simply indifferent... i gotta call lisa back soon...
KUDOS! to tony for getting his liscence, the lucky bastard...
yipee... we get out early tomorrow i wanna go out, plus i gotta see lisa to sign my app.... ya ok... i believe thats it ok and to steal from jess m...
a shout out to all my girls (including jess m, despite the fact she didnt include me...)and Morgan, and of course bunny....
ok good bye ...

I HATE LIFE

wtf... i hate life... i really am depressed...ive even thought ouf if i were to kill myself... but there is no quick way to do it, due to the fact i do not own a gun... life really has a away of taking any fun i have away and making me miserable and alone and i am really coming to the end of my rope.... my father doesnt even care about me... he says he does but he is so overprotective and really i am NOT a chinadoll nor am i like 7 i really really am pissed off... like more than ive been... god i always end up alone... but whats worse than that is im used to it...if any one is even bothering to read this i am NOT looking for pity, i dont want ur pity, i am just venting, b/c i have no one to talk to, the only other person id call, who i know is there for me and will listen to me, beside orlando,who isnt home, is out 2! so i am alone, xcept for my nazi father in the kitchen, who i fully dont expect to talk to for as long as i can... he brought me a tastey cake jr. prob b/c he knew he pissed me off... he thinks i can be bought with cake... pft! cake.... god...

HEY!

u guys bite!!! dont go stealing me style of writing! I showed u not so u could write eXacTLy like me! grrr.... ok im good
yah! it wasnt raining today so i got to prac skating! it was fUn and i met an angel.... i am convinced he was an angel! I was alone out side and this guy prob late 20s early 30 walked up to me, who i didnt see coming and said to me are u having fun? and i asked what he said b/c i didnt hear him... and he asked againa nd i said o ya, but i am only learning.. turns out this spanish looking fella skated too he very briefly told me about when he 1st started and then he encouraged me not to give up and i really htought that was nice... than he said his name was ralf and it was nice to meet me... i said im liz and nice to meet u 2.... when i was littler i always though the name Raphael, was a funky way to say Ralf, so ya i thin i met an angel...
morgan came ove to dinner today with bub and saba... that made me happy
im still in this damn depressed mood and i dont know what exactly is wrong... sigh... i still hafta finish my art project uhg!