I HATE LIFE

wtf... i hate life... i really am depressed...ive even thought ouf if i were to kill myself... but there is no quick way to do it, due to the fact i do not own a gun... life really has a away of taking any fun i have away and making me miserable and alone and i am really coming to the end of my rope.... my father doesnt even care about me... he says he does but he is so overprotective and really i am NOT a chinadoll nor am i like 7 i really really am pissed off... like more than ive been... god i always end up alone... but whats worse than that is im used to it...if any one is even bothering to read this i am NOT looking for pity, i dont want ur pity, i am just venting, b/c i have no one to talk to, the only other person id call, who i know is there for me and will listen to me, beside orlando,who isnt home, is out 2! so i am alone, xcept for my nazi father in the kitchen, who i fully dont expect to talk to for as long as i can... he brought me a tastey cake jr. prob b/c he knew he pissed me off... he thinks i can be bought with cake... pft! cake.... god...